Okay I know this comes bit late, cuz summer vacation started about two weeks ago xD I guess I should write something here, because there has been few things happening...with my friends and...well...in my head.


For one, my very good friend, Roadie is hurt. Because one of our friends has been lying to us...and now that friend flee'd away and that's why Roadie is pretty hurt at the moment. I can't stand watching it. I HATE to see my friends hurt. Absolutely hate it. Always when my friends tell me that ''I'm so lonely and no one is here for me''...the only thing that I want on that moment, is to GO to that person and keep her/him company and make the person laugh! I love making people laugh! I love see them smiles! I LOVE TO  CHEER UP PEOPLE. Which is the main reason why I don't like angsting too much. I mean, I DO angst once in a while...but it's just fucking annoying if I get too negative and I just angst from small reasons or stuff. Yeah, I just realize that angsting makes others sad.

Sometimes I bear to listen people angsting, but when they do it ALL THE FRIGGIN TIME...it's getting fucking annoying. And when I try to help, I get yelled at.

Anypoo! No more cussing! Let's hear some other news, yay!

I have found a new side in my liking, and well...I got 2 crushes, which were bit...different from the ones I had in past. For now, I have only one, because I understand that it's wrong to have 2 ones. I somehow managed to get rid of the first one, but I don't feel like giving up the second one. I hope there is no problem in that, I really do. I know very well that it's practically impossible to get the feelings returned, because the person is my friend, but I don't really care~! I just like being close to the person, that's all! I just got bit shocked when my friend told me that it's rare, that when person are, like, married...that BOTH sides love eachothers...now that just made me scared. What if I fall in love someone in future and the person marries/dates me but doesn't love me back!? I'm that kind of a person, who HATES to making others uncomfortable.

I usually try my best to understand them and as one of my friends said, ''Everything is fine with you''

She is partly right. I don't like questioning people cuz that makes them uncomfortable. If person says that ''You're a good friend but I like her better'', I just nod and say 'I understand'. Hey, what do they want me to do, nag? I can't force myself onto someone and go like ''WHY AREN'T I YOUR BEST FRIEND WHY??''. I'm not stupid. I put others first. Always.

There is a certain personality that I like. Person who is mature, but can be childish and funny at times. Person who can stay serious and UNDERSTAND things. Person who is willing to listen to me and is not always telling me stuff that she/he only likes. The person doesn't force stuff on me. Person who doesn't go and always angst on me. If the person sometimes feels bad, I'm willing to listen. And the person shares alot same interests with me, but still...we aren't 'identical'. The person likes something that I guess I dislike. I'm totally fine with that.

I'll fall for that kind of person...and I think I already did.

But yeah...that should be it! Waiting forward to animecon! ^-^